QUOTE (vivian @ Mar 22 2008, 10:48 PM)

Thank you very much for your insight! I am still feeling like a void, aloneness yet wanting, like a pulling on my heart strings, was suppose to go out with really my only single girlfriend last night and canceled. We are very different, and for some reason, I just pictured the worst. I always have looked forward to going out when I am single on a full moon, have felt it would be special, ectt.. but most of the time it has seemed to draw out the intensity in people and not always for the best.
Don't meen to be a downer, perhaps it's also because it will be Easter tomorrow, not like CHristmas or New YEars EVe, but with not being in a realtionship, married couple friends busy with coping with preparations for tomorrow, I do realize I am kind of alone, although we are never really alone.
Anyway, thank you, again,
Wish you the best!!!!
Vivian
I know what you mean. I went through this same thing tonight. I went over a friends house but she got in a fight with her bf. my normal group of friends have been bored lately.. ran out of things to do on saturday.. the other guy i've been talking to lives an hour away.. so i drove home, I live in the boonies so i parked my car, I opened the sun roof and sat on top of it and stared at the moon.. it made me feel sad to be sitting up there alone. But i always come to realize that our whole lives are like this. we are always "alone"- even when we are with other people, but theres nothing wrong with that! When i have these thoughts I try to fill myself with love and feel how safe and comforting it is to be by myself. even though we don't have people with us, we have our thoughts, our feelings, our beliefs, the air, the world, everything to be with =) But I know what your going through-- I hope these thoughts are only fleeting and you feel rejuvinated soon!