This is a new forum for me. I am very pleased at the responses people have given others and appreciate the humanity in all of this work being done prompted by the good for the human spirit.
I am in a very deep quandry about where I belong in life. I came to Canada from the US when I was a boy. I have no genetic ties to this country other than common indiginous roots to First Nations. I married a girl who was local, we were together for 16 years. We were very close, but we had no children. We ent through a very tramatic situation on a reserve up north. We came back to the general area. She went home to visit family and found employment. I stayed in an area that was a border town between Canada and the U.S. on the New Brunswick side. My mother had passed. I had to clear up her estate. I ended up buying a home near my wife's family on the ocean.
My wife and I are both teachers. She met someone else and we were divorced. No one has bothered to tell me what really happened. I feel like there is deception all around me. I am not sure if common friends are telling me the truth about the woman whom I thought was the love of my life.
I have returned to the place where I used to live and I called home. I find myself feeling a stranger here. This is also the same area my former wife considered home.
In my heart I feel lost, without direction. I do have a nice home here and I wonder if I should remain and seek full time employment as a teacher. Although I do feel there is some unclear un finishished business with my wife. I try to keep the lines of communication open.
The truth I seek is whether the spirit is seeking me to stay and remain and acknowledge this as home? Will a career blossom and take root? Will my partner return? It was wrong for me to have thought a trial seperation would be a good thing. This was the only place I could think of that I could call home. I have an elderly sister who depends upon me. I have done what I thought was always the right thing. The anxiety of the unknown, and the feeling of second guessing myself through out all things that led to these feelings of being lost cloud my vission for my next step whether to stay or leave.
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QUOTE (Lastman @ Jul 3 2009, 12:28 AM) 
Will my partner return?
I should hope for your sake she would not. Stepping into a woman who is a trap once is unfair to any good man. I did that myself, and it gave me many bitter years. But doing it twice would be just plain silly. Your old life is ruined. Forget about it. Move along and make another for yourself - there is plenty of time to make an even better one, but that can't happen until you're willing to let go the broken remains of what you thought you had.
QUOTE (Armadodecadron @ Jul 3 2009, 02:48 AM)
I should hope for your sake she would not. Stepping into a woman who is a trap once is unfair to any good man. I did that myself, and it gave me many bitter years. But doing it twice would be just plain silly. Your old life is ruined. Forget about it. Move along and make another for yourself - there is plenty of time to make an even better one, but that can't happen until you're willing to let go the broken remains of what you thought you had.
Thank you
QUOTE (Lastman @ Jul 2 2009, 06:28 PM)
This is a new forum for me. I am very pleased at the responses people have given others and appreciate the humanity in all of this work being done prompted by the good for the human spirit.
I am in a very deep quandry about where I belong in life. I came to Canada from the US when I was a boy. I have no genetic ties to this country other than common indiginous roots to First Nations. I married a girl who was local, we were together for 16 years. We were very close, but we had no children. We ent through a very tramatic situation on a reserve up north. We came back to the general area. She went home to visit family and found employment. I stayed in an area that was a border town between Canada and the U.S. on the New Brunswick side. My mother had passed. I had to clear up her estate. I ended up buying a home near my wife's family on the ocean.
My wife and I are both teachers. She met someone else and we were divorced. No one has bothered to tell me what really happened. I feel like there is deception all around me. I am not sure if common friends are telling me the truth about the woman whom I thought was the love of my life.
I have returned to the place where I used to live and I called home. I find myself feeling a stranger here. This is also the same area my former wife considered home.
In my heart I feel lost, without direction. I do have a nice home here and I wonder if I should remain and seek full time employment as a teacher. Although I do feel there is some unclear un finishished business with my wife. I try to keep the lines of communication open.
The truth I seek is whether the spirit is seeking me to stay and remain and acknowledge this as home? Will a career blossom and take root? Will my partner return? It was wrong for me to have thought a trial seperation would be a good thing. This was the only place I could think of that I could call home. I have an elderly sister who depends upon me. I have done what I thought was always the right thing. The anxiety of the unknown, and the feeling of second guessing myself through out all things that led to these feelings of being lost cloud my vission for my next step whether to stay or leave.
I am in a very deep quandry about where I belong in life. I came to Canada from the US when I was a boy. I have no genetic ties to this country other than common indiginous roots to First Nations. I married a girl who was local, we were together for 16 years. We were very close, but we had no children. We ent through a very tramatic situation on a reserve up north. We came back to the general area. She went home to visit family and found employment. I stayed in an area that was a border town between Canada and the U.S. on the New Brunswick side. My mother had passed. I had to clear up her estate. I ended up buying a home near my wife's family on the ocean.
My wife and I are both teachers. She met someone else and we were divorced. No one has bothered to tell me what really happened. I feel like there is deception all around me. I am not sure if common friends are telling me the truth about the woman whom I thought was the love of my life.
I have returned to the place where I used to live and I called home. I find myself feeling a stranger here. This is also the same area my former wife considered home.
In my heart I feel lost, without direction. I do have a nice home here and I wonder if I should remain and seek full time employment as a teacher. Although I do feel there is some unclear un finishished business with my wife. I try to keep the lines of communication open.
The truth I seek is whether the spirit is seeking me to stay and remain and acknowledge this as home? Will a career blossom and take root? Will my partner return? It was wrong for me to have thought a trial seperation would be a good thing. This was the only place I could think of that I could call home. I have an elderly sister who depends upon me. I have done what I thought was always the right thing. The anxiety of the unknown, and the feeling of second guessing myself through out all things that led to these feelings of being lost cloud my vission for my next step whether to stay or leave.
Hopefully it is of some comfort that you are where you are meant to be at this stage of your life (literally and physically). You do not elaborate on the traumatic event that took place and get the feeling that this has had bearing on the outcome of your situation. I feel deeply for you and sympathise for the position you are in. Give yourself some time, as sometimes doing nothing is 'safer' than just dashing off with no clear plan in mind. Time is a great healer and firmly believe that when one door closes, another opens. My mom has a saying "When God takes, He always gives something in return and it's usually something better". I wish this for you - that in time you will find yourself enjoying a better understanding of and relationship with yourself and that you will again find stability, comfort, contentment, love and peace in your home, job, life and love.
QUOTE (Lastman @ Jul 3 2009, 12:28 AM)
This is a new forum for me. I am very pleased at the responses people have given others and appreciate the humanity in all of this work being done prompted by the good for the human spirit.
I am in a very deep quandry about where I belong in life. I came to Canada from the US when I was a boy. I have no genetic ties to this country other than common indiginous roots to First Nations. I married a girl who was local, we were together for 16 years. We were very close, but we had no children. We ent through a very tramatic situation on a reserve up north. We came back to the general area. She went home to visit family and found employment. I stayed in an area that was a border town between Canada and the U.S. on the New Brunswick side. My mother had passed. I had to clear up her estate. I ended up buying a home near my wife's family on the ocean.
My wife and I are both teachers. She met someone else and we were divorced. No one has bothered to tell me what really happened. I feel like there is deception all around me. I am not sure if common friends are telling me the truth about the woman whom I thought was the love of my life.
I have returned to the place where I used to live and I called home. I find myself feeling a stranger here. This is also the same area my former wife considered home.
In my heart I feel lost, without direction. I do have a nice home here and I wonder if I should remain and seek full time employment as a teacher. Although I do feel there is some unclear un finishished business with my wife. I try to keep the lines of communication open.
The truth I seek is whether the spirit is seeking me to stay and remain and acknowledge this as home? Will a career blossom and take root? Will my partner return? It was wrong for me to have thought a trial seperation would be a good thing. This was the only place I could think of that I could call home. I have an elderly sister who depends upon me. I have done what I thought was always the right thing. The anxiety of the unknown, and the feeling of second guessing myself through out all things that led to these feelings of being lost cloud my vission for my next step whether to stay or leave.
I am in a very deep quandry about where I belong in life. I came to Canada from the US when I was a boy. I have no genetic ties to this country other than common indiginous roots to First Nations. I married a girl who was local, we were together for 16 years. We were very close, but we had no children. We ent through a very tramatic situation on a reserve up north. We came back to the general area. She went home to visit family and found employment. I stayed in an area that was a border town between Canada and the U.S. on the New Brunswick side. My mother had passed. I had to clear up her estate. I ended up buying a home near my wife's family on the ocean.
My wife and I are both teachers. She met someone else and we were divorced. No one has bothered to tell me what really happened. I feel like there is deception all around me. I am not sure if common friends are telling me the truth about the woman whom I thought was the love of my life.
I have returned to the place where I used to live and I called home. I find myself feeling a stranger here. This is also the same area my former wife considered home.
In my heart I feel lost, without direction. I do have a nice home here and I wonder if I should remain and seek full time employment as a teacher. Although I do feel there is some unclear un finishished business with my wife. I try to keep the lines of communication open.
The truth I seek is whether the spirit is seeking me to stay and remain and acknowledge this as home? Will a career blossom and take root? Will my partner return? It was wrong for me to have thought a trial seperation would be a good thing. This was the only place I could think of that I could call home. I have an elderly sister who depends upon me. I have done what I thought was always the right thing. The anxiety of the unknown, and the feeling of second guessing myself through out all things that led to these feelings of being lost cloud my vission for my next step whether to stay or leave.
i feel really sorry for you man i been an empathic all my life i could sense certain things about people made it hard for me to really talk to someone so i was very shy and to myself but i found alot of peace in my deep thoughts
i always trusted and went with my gut feeling
it sad you put all your time and energy into someone and it ends up bad for you
the main thing is to get past your hurt man
from what i realized most people will do the same thing all over again you say your sister really depends on you then you are really needed in life you should focus on hobbies or something to pass the time to either get your mind off of things or basicly get past this point in life that sounds very tramatic for you before i became psychic
i had bad things like this that happened to me but i always used my gut feeling or empathicness to get past it or away from them in time etc but now that i am a empathic psychic certain girls i look at i see them in my future and where they will talk to me etc it really only shows everything good but i predicted one girl would show up at a certain time to two lady friends i know she really did show up as i said
but i did see she would have alot of fears and open up to me later on
anyways she blew up on me because of her fears she holds inside i have actually seen this in other girls on thing i learned they always regret it since i was asian i went to my asian roots and started using a shield of karma around me if your a good guy you treated her right etc reguardless she will regret the bad things she did etc to you
i have seen people regret losing me as a friend etc i have had many tell me how my phone number burned in there mind that they wanted to call me but was scared to
but **** it up man there are other nice girls who would treat you better and be more loyal and honest to you
i hope this helps
Spirit will support you wherever you are, wherever you go... that I know to be true!
QUOTE (Armadodecadron @ Jul 2 2009, 11:48 PM)
I should hope for your sake she would not. Stepping into a woman who is a trap once is unfair to any good man. I did that myself, and it gave me many bitter years. But doing it twice would be just plain silly. Your old life is ruined. Forget about it. Move along and make another for yourself - there is plenty of time to make an even better one, but that can't happen until you're willing to let go the broken remains of what you thought you had.
I know you don't need it... but I want to anyway. *HUGS* Please just know I understand.
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