At the moment I'm having some real difficulty in my life and was wondering if anyone could provide me with some advice/thoughts on the future with it.

I feel like I'm being punished for something at the moment - but I'm just not sure what. It's like my life is just trying to stifle me completely, almost like I'm just in completely the wrong place. I know a psychic who has been very accurate at predicting things in the past, but she refuses to provide me with any guidance (she does not do reading for people), and says I need to figure it all out for myself. The problem is that I just don't know where to begin.

My main source of anxiety is coming from the fact that I am so completely lonely. It's very difficult to express that you may know a lot of people, but that doesn't necessarily mean you aren't lonely. My problem is that there is a lack of people who understand me, or even accept me. I just do not connect on any added level with anyone that makes me want to get to know them (or vice versa) out of where I know them from. Thus, I have people I go to uni with, people I work with, people I went to school with but I have no 'friends'. As much as I'd like people to think that I'm not dependent on other people, it's just not true. The problem is that I'm just not sure I'm ever going to meet anyone who I truly click with. In the past week though, I have been asking for this person more than ever and the other week I all of a sudden 'knew' that I was going to meet someone, and was given a timeline for it. Having gone my entire life being completely misunderstood and not truly accepted, it's something that I have wanted for so long and I know it's going to be in the form of an actual relationship because I'm just not ready yet. Does anyone see me actually meeting a person like this - the friend I've never had, and if so how long do you think it will be?

My other 'big' problem is my studies. I have long felt I was going the wrong way with my studies. I'm essentially going two degrees (I have to) and while I enjoy one of them, the other I do not. The problem is that I have always felt like I should be helping people and I wonder about my ability to do so with the field I am going to enter. There is a possibility that I could help people with it, but I could easily not. I have been completely void of any sort of ideas about this and I can't figure it out. Nothing comes to me, no matter how hard I think about it. I've also recently had problems with tests and assignments and need to know whether this is going to turn out ok or not. I'm extremely worried about them. Am I doing the right thing?

My third problem is my work. I have long considered myself to be somewhat of an empath. The problem is, the place I'm working in now has extremely bad emotions all the way through it. My boss is horrible to me most of them time (to the point of bullying) and I have to put up with some truly detestable customers and it often just gets way too much for me. I have been looking for new jobs recently, but feel as though I shouldn't go. I have my suspicions why I might be getting this feeling, but I wondered what other people's thoughts were. The psychic I mentioned before has actually told me things about this, which is strange for her. She told me when I first went there what it would be like and how it would make me feel (and actually told me not to go there and what she said would be the problems were) and has since told me that I am not to leave, under any circumstances. She has told me that my boss will 'get his' and that I need to remain there. I continue to feel awful everytime I come home from there - and, depending on what happens, often feel just awful at work as well. This is only a 'temporary' job, while I am studying.

This is all combined with a continuing streak of bad luck and other things happening with respect to my family, and particularly their health. I just feel helpless because I've always been someone who's been able to look at a situation like this, see the solution and solve it myself. I am completely helpless with respect to all three of these areas and I'm becoming more and more...well, depressed because not only are things not getting solved but they've become stagnant. I have gone to see psychics about it but I think I've just come along frauds/people who only tell you what you want to hear. Some of the outcomes are too ridiculously positive to be true. I realise no one can have all the answers, but I'd really like some guidance.

Thanks for reading, and sorry about the length. This was half question, half venting!

Go out and do an activity on campus! Or get involved in a local organization. Heck, get involved in the professional organization for what you are studying. If you don't mind, what are you studying?

As for work, your boss has no right to treat you like that. Talk to his boss and calmly explain the situation and how you feel. And some customers really do need to get the stick out of their *** a lot; it's a part of working anywhere.

And it also sounds like you need a big hug.

HUG!

If I may, I can suggest a few simple actions which may help alleviate some of your problems.



You might try to behave as if your own intuition is accurate and begin looking forward to welcoming this person into your life.




It's hard to imagine helping someone through work you may grow to detest. Have you thought seriously on abandoning the field you don't like? If not, consider it.





Go with your intuition as long as you're sure it's your own intuition and not the suggestion of someone else.





The real danger here, as I see it, is the looming spectre of depression. Try to avoid it if at all possible even if that means seeking therapeutic help.

Have more confidence in yourself and your inner urgings. My greatest regrets in my own life are the times I resisted or didn't listen to that 'still small voice' within. Every single time, I ended up regretting it. I eventually learnt to trust those inner urgings without question and they've never failed me.

Hey Ace,

I did a lil reading for ya.

Aura

I see a deep dark blue at the left and next to the head. The dark blue signifies a fear of the future, of self-expression and or facing or speaking the truth. It's location suggest that its affecting your intuition and your faith (in yourself?). Or that something outside is affecting your personal believe and thus causing the fear.

Moving lower down there is a ring that surrounds the dark blue and it looks like a lime green which tells me that you're creative with your heart and this may be how you communicate. Below that is a section of deep purple that covers your right side of the aura and below the lime green. This deep purple although its' a sign of intuition and reveals psychic power of attunement with self it's muddiness may suggest something similar to what your psychic friend suggested. Maybe you're not allowing yourself to look for the answers from within yourself.

Right at your mid section there was a bright yellow section which suggest that you're struggling to maintain power and control in a personal or business relationship. You may fear losing control, prestige, respect, and/or power. Which is no new news right, that part is basically what you've told us, but since it's at your mid section this is what you're doing in the day to day. The lower portion is very dark but i couldn't tell if it was black or just a mix of dark colors it varied but since it's at the bottom it just means that you're ability to ground yourself (being connected to yourself and your goals) isn't stable. Do you know what you want?

Also your aura is small. It's very close to your body, which tells me that you're not living up to your potential and I can see from what you said that your environment is doing it. But from what's colors tell me (the dark blue specifically) it may mean that you're choosing not to be you out of fear.

I asked for something that represented your job situation and I got what looked like the outline of a man but the inside was pure static. You know like the static on a television. I couldn't see nor understand what was going on there when I asked you to move closer too it it didn't do much in terms of the 'reception.' It may mean that whatever the work situation is is not in tune with you or you with it. You don't complement one another so there's alot of energetic static.

As for your loneliness when I asked for an image I saw what looked like you (maybe really young?) crouched and looking at a model of a little town. Except the 'horizon' of the town where the trees would be looked like waves that you would see in a frequency or like the music equalizer. you seemed kinda amazed by what was going on there. I don't know exactly what this means, but since it reminds me of a little boy playing, my guess is that it may be suggesting that you should dream more. It's okay to have dreams and fantasies of great and amazing things and play, above all else play. Kids have the brightest futures because they believe they can do ANYTHING and until they decide what that is their future is bright and open. Be like a child and believe in yourself and your abilities. Know that you are meant to do amazing things.

Hey, maybe you can make new friends and have fun through music??? hey if you're musically inclined you can try DJing?? A friend of mine did that and it really opened him up.

Ah with what you're studying I saw a large tower extend itself from the ground and just shoot straight up (look at The Tower tarot card, similar to that but without deflection). But it was a little tower on a really large base. Like the foundation took up 90% of the height and the tower took the other 10%. I saw in caps SCIENCE run up the base kinda like

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but i don't know how much of that is true. I had similar feelings to you about college so i may be biased. I majored in Bio for many years and struggled with chemistry which was the expected minor to have. I chose Studio Art as a minor and then 1 year i got tired of struggling and decided flip it. I did Art as a Major and Bio as a minor. I was better and happier for it as it played to my strengths and the people who I gravitate too have a natural creative side so it all just made sense (fyi it took me 10 yrs to grad from college while workin full time. Had i not struggled to make something that didn't suit me work, i may have have finished sooner or have spent more time doing things i enjoyed). But if it is something similar, lemme just say that there are Many Many ways to help people in the area that you wish to study. Just look at what you enjoy and then see if you can mesh them somehow Plus its college, have fun, get through it and don't be afraid to get out of a class if you know you can't realistically make it work.

Also when you're in school nobody knows who you really are so you can be you. They will have no other choice but to accept it because they don't have any preconceived notions ya know. As for work, yeah some customers will be a pain. Just remember, "it has nothing to do with you." Bad customers, icky bosses are not a reflection of who you are. Be you hun, express yourself and believe in yourself. Not sure what to believe? That's okay, just flow. Go through the motions, but ask for inspiration and keep your eyes and ears open for your what feels right to you. Maybe you're suppose to stay at your job because hey, this may not be cool but, if you get laid off you get unemployment and that'll give you time to breathe and figure things out. *shrugs*

There's an upside to most things, but right now I think your psychic is trying to tell you to learn from yourself. Some things you have to go through so that you can learn from it, if you don't got through it you won't learn and just keep repeating the same thing over and over. I know that for me sometimes my guides don't allow me to help someone because it's important that they go through that stage in their life.

Hi Ace - I think a book that would resonate with you and help explain some of why you feel the way you do is Sacred Contracts by Caroline Myss.

Thanks for the advice and support, guys (and sorry it took me so long to reply!).