Okay so I'm just an 18 year old girl who went through what I would consider a rough life, I lost pretty much everyone I had except for two amazing people who have never betrayed me. . I was in a deep depression, went to a mental hospital, and an exorcist to find out what was wrong. The exorcism awoke something in me and caused an even worse depression. There was something about that woman that just seemed off, I sensed that rather than her helping me, she was trying to hurt me or even kill me. Her human faced turned into this odd shaped bald demon looking thing with lots of wrinkles icy blue eyes and many small sharp teeth. She grabbed my face and was screaming in my face. It didnt feel right. I turned to spirituality and exploring myself hoping to find peace and what was tracking all the negativity to me. After researching and trying my first REAL meditation I got this first vision.


1.A calming sweet voice started talking to me, it told me I wasnt that bad of a person that I thought I was and I was really to hard on myself. It told me to take a look in the mirror and so I did. It started explaining good traits about myself then told me to breathe and relax. Then I felt the energies in my body start moving and I felt as if I was no longer in my body. I then was standing in a house with no roof and grass and flowers for the floor. There was nothing on the walls and no furniture. It told me to go into the house and walk down the hallway that turned to the left, I then heard a scary breathing noise and I got scared and opened my eyes. It told me to not be afraid and try again. So I then closed my eyes and saw a beaming light shooting from my head and my mom was sleeping in the other room but the roof to my house was removed and I saw a light shooting from my mothers head and we were connected to a giant glowing ball and so was the neighbors and so forth. The end.

2. The next night I again meditated, this meditation was far more intense. I closed my eyes and heard many noises I've never heard before. In my mind I started seeing zebras running, lions running in africa attacking zebras, I saw so much LIFE. The next things I started seeing where meteors hitting the earth and one just barely missed an airplane. The next thing I saw was plantes and a rocket and the stars then I saw this crown on my head that looked like the Christians Trinity sign but the three loops connected forming a hole that became a doorway that I could see through. Through this hole became my whole vision. I saw a HUGE crystal rigt infront of me and I was floating over egyptian pyramids and saw a huge shadow of an Eagle or a Falcon. Then I started see the Egyptian Eye of Ra and I started seeing many of these eyes dancing in cicles over shadowing the pyramid. Then I saw the brightest light that was brighter than the sun itself but I could still see without it hurting my eyes. I then heard the light speak to me and it said, "Focus on the now. YOu need to come back to reality. Stop dwelling your feelings on the future and the past. The time is now and you live in it. Calm yourself, don't forget to breath, quit doubtin yourself and don't be easily be struck by fear because I bring love. You must become one with yourself in order to work with yourself. All of your energies should be approached in a gentle loving manor, force and aggresion with not bring positive mindests that could help the next person aspire. Lay down your wants and pick up your purpose because they purpose will be fully rewarding. You can have this gift by learning to love yourself. This is the only wall that blocks you to having inner peace. To love others you must first learn to love yourself. This is the greatist gift you can give."



3. I saw a large ring and in there were eyes around the ring and it looked as if it were made of stone. A dark aqua color blue with some areas a darker blue. I started to hear a low vibration that sounded like a chorus of men who sang bass as low as they could go but I heard this "Song" from the noise of mere crickets. I then saw a very old map with designs and a language that I cold not read but I specifically remember a shape that looked kind of like a Q. And as I would try to focus on what the map looked like it started to change into different shapes and different languages. Then I started seeing strange drawings and paintings of things. I saw this image and it looked similar to an Egyptian drawing but it seemed too old for an Egyptian Hirogliffics. But there was a triangle, and there were three large steps that lead to the top of the traingle. And he was carrying a ball that looked like it was a ball of golden energy. On the man was a crown, and light blue marking on his arm. I kept hearing a voice saying, "Calm your thoughts, lets yourself be." From this sentence I understood to just simply let myself exist. And after I just purely existed, had no thoughts I felt extremly refreshed and in a good mood.

4. I heard a crackling noise inside my head and my physical vision went completely white for a second, then back to normal. Then it started fading to black back to normal to black etc. I then felt myself or someone else I'm not sure, I saw someone getting their head slammed into a wall and their skull being crushed I could see blood and brains dripping from their crushed skull, and I freaked out.


I have no idea what these visions mean or symbolize, and I dont know why they are coming to me.
If someone could help me it would be great.

Sounds like you have found your guide/s.... when it happened to me, I felt truely blessed.... this process you are going through can only help you move forward.....

like me, the first message was always "get yourself right, love thyself & then you will be able to help/love your family & then friends/others"....

Never be afraid of what you see, explore things with a positive mindset.. in the early stages, I was seeing/hearing things, my guides would always say (they still say it) "If you are positive then you will always get the correct message"... it's simply the best advice I can give you...

Now, don't be too hard on yourself if you don't understand what you see, some things you may never understand, that is just the way it is, I doubt there is a single person who would understand everything but if you continue to be positive, continue to want to learn & understand then things will be easier to interpret....

Just on point 4.... quite a lot of spirit show me how they have passed, it's not always pleasant but it's nothing to be scared of either.... it usually helps me understand some of they things that they are telling me or want to tell me later.... also, sometimes I get visions of accidents, again, its nothing to be scared of, sometimes it has already happened, sometimes I believe it's something that may happen, especially if I can connect it with a someone I know, for which I have contacted friends to either say slow down, drive safely, perhaps that one message alone stopping what may have been....

good luck on your journey, it sounds like you have come from a difficult place & you are being guided to a place of peace & happiness.... god bless...

Oh wow. That makes a lot of sense on point 4. A woman I just met told me I have a lot of abilities but I am scared to use them....Maybe I'm afraid of them because of that very moment....Before a spirit talks to you, does anything physical happen to you??



And the spirit guides, wow, no one told me thats what they could have been. That makes sense too.



Thank you so much for your time and reading all that, its a lot.
I wish I could show you how much I appreciate it!!! <333