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    What's the Point?

    Hi. :) Those of you who have been helping and guiding me, be patient. :) I'm still torn about calling, or thinking of myself, as psychic. Intuitive is easier to deal with. But, regardless of what I call it, I'm still not sure it's what I am. If I am intuitive, on the one hand, I wonder -- who cares? Why do I even need to know? On the other hand, it's something I'd want to develop, sort of like if I discovered I could paint better than most people I knew, I'd want to learn to be a better painter. I'd also want validation that I was in fact a decent painter. I'm also wondering... what's the point? I've always believed that our gifts and talents were for a purpose, had a point. Maybe I'm wrong, but I don't really get this one. I may not be making myself clear. But, I suspect I'm not the only one who's dealt with doubts like mine, so maybe I don't have to be totally clear for some of you to understand. If anyone can share how they've dealt with such doubts, been able to clear them up, I'd appreciate it. And, I guess, anyone who hasn't had any such doubts -- how do you manage to be so sure of yourself? ~ Zan
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    What's the Point?

    Yeah, Angel, you've said that before. But, how would I go about doing that? Fooze, sorry about rambling a little. What to call isn't really important to me. Was sort of talking to myself on that point. As far as using intuition as a tool... it brings me comfort when I'm worried about something, and it "prompts" me to be prepared for little things like my husband making an unexpected purchase, or coming home from work ill... things like that. Of course, sometimes I wonder if the "comfort" is just my imagination and not worth relying on... and sometimes the "prompts" are wrong or useless, which makes me doubt that I should be relying on them at all. Which all leads me back to the subject line -- what's the point? (Sorry if I sound cranky -- I have a sobbing baby in the kitchen that cannot be helped. It's a little distracting, and yes... cranky-making.) ~ Zan
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    a simple opportunity for psychic practice

    Just guessing now, no intuition -- a pentagram?
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    a simple opportunity for psychic practice

    I don't get this, but I "see" red with a white stripe (or stripes) and get the feeling of a flag, or the colors/pattern of a team, country, or something like that.
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    Spiritual Growth

    You are right. However, I think the problem -- from my perspective, anyway, as I know you don't have a problem -- with your argument as a whole is that learning is different from experiencing. Have you never turned your face to the sunshine just to experience the warmth of it on your face -- and not thought one bit about anything you *know* about the sun, not tried to learn a thing?? To me, this is what life -- the human experience, anyway -- is all about. What we learn can be interesting, but is silly in the big picture. After this life, none of it matters, but the experiences we had. I could go on and on, this is something that's important to me. But I've got to feed my family, so I'll stop there, as I think that's the most important point I could have made.
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    Spiritual Growth

    The soul makes us what we are, but as humans we are living as what we are not, so that we can know what we are. You know what? Have you read the book "Conversations With God" yet? If you haven't, do -- it clarified for me so many of the things I've tried to explain here (even though I still don't explain well -- little ones interfere with my writing skills). If you have, and still see things as you do, then it's just a matter of perspective, somehow, that no amount of discussion is likely to change. I don't mean to sound belligerent here. I'm just rushing to get the point down before my 5yo distracts me from it. Again. :) Also, to be honest, you seem so unhappy and part of me wants to fix that NOW. One of my weaknesses... I can't stand for people to be unhappy when I see the world as such a wonderful place. But, there are times when people need to be unhappy, and I'm trying to learn when to help and when to just be there. Haven't got it down yet. ;) ~ Zan
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    Letting Go

    Throughout my days lately, as I think about signs and symbols, I believe I'm getting a strong message of "let go" regarding a friend of mine. But, I feel a deep connection to this friend, to the point that I believe we are soulmates of a sort -- not the typical romantic soulmates we always hear about, but someone to whom I have a strong and lasting connection. Anyway, I can't really figure out what "let go" means. I don't believe it means that I should stop interacting with this person. That interpretation doesn't "feel" right. But, I can't get a good feel on what *is* right, and what -- if anything -- I should be doing in regards to this message. Can anyone get a feel for what's going on? It's also possible that I'm seeing messages where there are none. :unsure: I'd appreciate anything that can be shared. Thanks! :) ~ Zan
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    Letting Go

    Dot, this is what you had written that I was curious about. Sorry I didn't use the quotes very clearly this morning.... "Do you feel like you're going around after people instead of yourself? You would rather be doing things for yourself?" I'm not sure what you mean by going around after people instead of myself. Also, my left hip hurts more at the front and side than the back, so the unawareness thing doesn't fit. I had a book once by Louise Hay that sounds similar to the one you're talking about. So, I'll bet some of this information is on the net. I'll see what I can glean. :)
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    Why can't we talk to God directly?

    Thanks. :) I still have a hard time thinking of it as special... as in different... and am always surprised when more people aren't the same way. But, at the same time, there's that "insanity" fear factor. ;) Anyway, I encourage my kids to the extent that they bring it up. My dad didn't really set out to teach me much about spirituality. In fact, he's told me as an adult that he in fact made an effort to not shape my spirituality in any way. I can understand and respect his point of view, especially knowing that he grew up in a very strictly religious household. But, it would've been nice to have more guidance and support. Finding my way through all this alone has been frustrating at times because there are very few people I can talk to about my experiences, and because I've been so alone in them, it's been very easy to doubt their validity. I hope to strike a balance with my own kids. Not shape their views to my own beliefs, but to be there for them more as they find their own way -- something everyone ultimately has to do, anyway. But, I haven't quite figured out how to do that yet! lol! It doesn't help that my kids are so different, either! My son (12) is very literal and mocks religion. I think he has strong spiritual beliefs, but he doesn't like to discuss them and tends to pretend he thinks it's all ridiculous -- especially anything paranormal. My older daughter is 5 and asking a lot of questions about God and Jesus and magic... and just the other night freaked her dad out by telling me there was a fire. When I ran to help, he was watering down a potential fire hazard, but hadn't said a word about it. His surprise surprised me, ironically. I mean, he is married to me... did he really think I was going to be the only one? But, I think he has always thought of my abilities as a spiritual gift, and not being psychic. I don't really see a difference, but I can see that since he holds that view, Zoe's action would surprise him because she's not really old enough to have what he seems to believe I have.... if that makes sense! You know, writing this down, I realize one of the reasons I'm trying so hard to be able to understand and name all the things I do... I want to be able to share it with my scientific son and be able to explain things to him in a matter of fact way that he'll be able to accept... and I want to be able to share with Zoe in a way that helps her experience her own magic. The baby, of course, I have no idea about except that she is exceptionally alert, aware, and affectionate. I also want to be able to stand my ground when dealing with people who have difficulty with it -- especially since we're planning to find a church to attend after we move, for social reasons. I'm a little nervous about that, since my husband was a born-again fundamentalist Christian when we met (and I was trying to be, since I thought it was the right thing to do at the time). A lot of the friends he's making in the new town are also born-again. So, I want to be very choosy about the church we attend, so I don't have to "go into hiding" again. :) I think I answered your question -- let me know if I didn't, or if you have others! :) ~ Zan
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    Why can't we talk to God directly?

    What an interesting subject... and in a place where (maybe) no none will look down on me, or even askance, for my reply! :D First, I think the reason most of us believe we can't talk to God is that we have been conditioned to believe that we're not worthy. If I recall correctly, most of the major religions refer to a sin nature or something similar that has removed us from God. Even if we don't specifically believe that, it pervades our culture so much that it's hard to escape the belief, or the conditioning. That said, I personally believe that everyone has the capacity to talk to -- and hear from -- God. Why? Because I was doing it as a child, long before anyone told me it was impossible. Once I "learned" it was impossible, I tried to stop... to be more respectful in my prayers by going through Jesus as I'd been taught. But, I couldn't help it! I've always just talked to God like he was "Daddy" (not that I particularly believe him to be male, but... my relationship with my dad is probably the best relationship I've got, and -- again -- cultural conditioning). Not doing so was so unnatural for me. So I let myself start again, and just didn't talk about it. Now, there are times as I've gotten older and busier that I'll go some time without talking to God, just like I'll go some time without calling my dad, but my life always suffers for it. Also important, for me, to note -- these are *conversations*. In other words, I "hear" answers, just as much as I talk. Well, almost just as much. God's much more concise than I am. ;) I don't hear an audible voice... it's more like what goes on in my mind if I remember a conversation I had with someone... except that this is new material. FWIW, this is why I get so confused about spirit guides and divination tools and all that. I've always just "talked to God" and known what I need to know. I even aced tests in school that way! (Is it cheating? Nah... it was on the premise that all the information's "in there somewhere". I just asked for help finding it.) I find the ideas of using spirit guides, divination tools, mediumship (is that right?) fascinating, but I can never muster the patience to really learn them when it's so much faster to just ask and listen. It would be nice, though, to understand about the other things for when my mind is muddled... of course, I sort of think I'm not "allowed" to learn those things easily exactly because I would be moving away from God, not closer. (maybe???) Anyway, I'm starting to ramble because I love this topic. I could talk forever about conversing with God, but I can rarely find an audience who will actually listen! lol! (Thankfully, my husband is a consistent member of that audience... don't know what I'd do otherwise!). So, I hope that helps a little. :) ~ Zan
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    Letting Go

    Oh, Dot, I also meant to ask -- where are you getting your information? It sounds interesting! :) ~ Z.
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    Letting Go

    I think you all are on to something, but please keep the comments coming -- if there are any more -- so I can continue to clarify what's going on for myself. And, before I really respond/explain, I'm curious what you mean by this, Dot. Can you explain, please? Oh, also -- I'm curious about the body symbolism. The pain in my back left hip was just a fleeting twinge that happened as I was reading your post, Dot. But, my left front hip has been bothering me for a few days (not today, though, oddly). I'm definitely thinking to much about all this. I think too much about everything! lol! But, before I try to decipher the meaning of the back right hip, I'd like to know more about the left front. Make sense? Thanks! ~ Zan
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    Letting Go

    I can't think of anything offhand -- events or feelings. I'll try and keep it in mind tonight, see if anything comes up. But, this is the kind of thing I was hoping someone else would know! lol! FWIW, I believe I have seen a lot of symbolism and messages surrounding this friendship -- part of the reason I believe our relationship is special, since I don't get that much of that sort of thing about specific people very often. Anyway, in recent months there have been a number of dreams, and more recently, like within the past week, some card symbolism to look at. (I've posted about almost all this stuff on other threads, but not been able to understand much from them.) If it seems that any of that might be relevant, I can give more details, but jeez -- there's so much I wouldn't know where to start without some guidance! I'm too tired to even tell if any of that made sense! lol! I'll go to bed and keep the possibility of feelings to let go of in mind, see if there's an aha moment overnight. :) I'll also check in the morning to see if anyone else has any ideas... or ... ugh, never mind. The words are slipping from my mind faster than I can type them. 'Night! ~ Zan
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    Spiritual Growth

    You're welcome. :) I absolutely believe that two people with the same frame of reference -- same experience -- can and will have a different view on life. I also believe that two people with a totally different frame of reference -- or experience -- can come to the same conclusions about life. And, though it's occurred to me that doesn't seem to matter to anyone, I don't believe any of them are inherently right or wrong. What's right for me may be totally wrong for you and vice versa. Anyway, daughter's nagging me to play cards, so anything else I was going to say has flown my mind! I sort of wish I could make you feel better, Arm.... but I also have a feeling that for reasons I can't see, your feeling as you do is just right for now. Not something to be fixed. ~ Zan
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    Letting Go

    You know Dot, it's strange but I didn't particularly have any back pain, though my hips have been bothering me a little. But, between the time you wrote that and the time I read it, I tweaked my back picking up the baby. It was low back on the right side, and now that I'm writing to you, I felt a twinge of pain on the back of my right hip. But, I don't understand what any of that means, so you're gonna have to 'splain yourself! ;) Thanks for taking the time. :) ~ Zan
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    Spiritual Growth

    Well, yeah, I'm comfortable with myself... but not in the sense that I'm done seeking, I've settled. More in that I'm not uncomfortable with my beliefs. I think you answered your own question in the part I set to bold, though. The best possible reason I've ever heard as to why we would willingly leave perfection for this, of all things, is exactly so that we can create a frame of reference. Say that you are right, and you probably are, that there is so much more out there than we suspect and it is stunning. Yet, here we sit in this "base and trite" world. Here's the answer, I believe -- if this world were not to base and trite... if in fact, we lived in perfection.... would those other worlds be so stunning? No. The sun is brighter after a rainstorm. Our hearts are lighter after being relieved of the weight of grief. We can experience miraculous healing only when we are sick. So, perhaps, it is with the universe... maybe we can only experience the stunningly beautiful as exactly that AFTER we have seen ugliness. There is no here without a there. If we didn't choose imperfection, we would never stand a chance of experiencing perfection at any point. We might know we were perfect, but we couldn't '*experience* it, because experience is dynamic, requiring both the here and there -- a point of reference. This is why I say take the bad with the good... don't just take it -- embrace it! It's an easy thing to forget in our world, our culture, where nearly everything is bent toward creating perfection. The truth is, I believe, that perfection is already here. We just don't get it because we're too busy trying to fix it. And, since even in perfection this world is a difficult place for you to be, I would qualify my use of the word... I don't mean "perfect" as in "ideal"... I mean perfect as in flawless, complete, whole. I believe the universe is just that, because I believe that everything happens for a reason and at all times everything is exactly as it should be -- even when it doesn't seem so to us. Who are we to pass judgment on the filament of thread that is our life within the entire tapestry that is the infinite universe? I don't like my thread -- so what? It's not even noticeable in the tapestry. But it's necessary. Without it, the tapestry wouldn't be what it is.... which is something we can't see yet. Not even you, who has seen more than anyone I know, from what you said above. Anyway, I've started to lose track of what I wanted to say again. Which probably means I'm supposed to be done. :P No, I'm not. I went back and read your post again. All those things you have seen.... I haven't seen them, but within the realm of my experience, all those things are here with us right now. I experience more wonder on a daily basis than anyone I know personally, except probably my dad, who taught me to do so. I DO have to stop and make myself look for it, because it is soooo easy to get caught up in the worry and the drama of this world. But, when I do make myself stop and look, this world is a wonderful and exciting place and I love living. Now, I don't think at all that the cosmos revolves around Earth or humanity. In fact, my son and I were just discussing this morning how ridiculous the notion is. But, it's where I am at the moment. And, I have a choice. I can either spend this life wishing I were somewhere better, or I can look for the best of this life and this world and wring as much joy from it as I can. Even if I didn't know that my choice will affect everyone I touch.... who wouldn't choose joy?? (Besides everyone who doesn't realize it's a choice, obviously. :P) Okay, now I'm done. You seem mildly despondent tonight, or I'm misreading things. Either way, I hope I haven't made light of your troubles. I don't mean to. You asked, I answered. But I've "gotten in trouble" so many times when I try and explain my point of view. Apparently, it's offensive to a number of people. If you're one of them, accept my apologies. I don't mean to offend anyone, just explaining my own view on life. :) ~ Zan
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    Spiritual Growth

    I know this is an old thread, but it caught my attention and I wanted to throw in my "two cents" (to the best of my ability with my chatterbox daughter with me). There's too many wonderful ideas and questions in here to quote, so I'm not responding to any one thing in particular -- just throwing in my beliefs. :) I believe that the soul (or spirit, or higher self... it's all the same to me) is the part of is that is eternal. That's a pretty common belief, I think. I also believe that the soul is the part of us that is also part of God. And that before we were born here, our soul existed elsewhere and made a decision to come here and live the life we have. I believe the purpose of our life here is not to achieve perfection at all because, as Arm. pointed out, we are already perfect. I believe instead that our purpose here is essentially three things... ~ to *remember* and embrace our own soul's perfection as best we can within our human bodies and minds; ~ to experience all that life offers us, because only in experiencing *everything* -- "good" and "bad" -- can we remember our perfection (for example... someone cuts me off on the freeway ("bad"); I can choose then and there to respond with anger ("bad") or love ("good"); my feelings after my response will tell me if I chose "perfectly" or not); ~ and last, to assist all the other souls in our personal world (i.e., those we touch) in remembering their own perfection and experiencing their own life. What I call "spiritual growth" is simply the process of learning to do -- and then practicing -- what I described above. I know there was more I wanted to say, because I was thinking about how ego gets in the way. But for the life of me, I can't remember it right now. So, I hope I've made sense so far. I've written this through constant singing and chatter, and with four interruptions for little-kid-crises. If I didn't make sense, that's probably why! :) ~ Zan
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    Can a Psychic Help Locate a Missing Item?

    Hi! I "saw" the lower portion of a desk with a white kitchen-type chair at it. Now, I simultaneously got the feelings that 1) this desk is in someone else's house, so it's been stolen, and 2) it was played with and dropped to the floor around your mom's desk to where it's not visible unless you move the desk out. Unfortunately, those things conflict. Do move the desk, though, if you haven't already. Also, I "heard" the name Samuel. But, I just read another post by someone with the nickname Sammy, so am not sure if I'm actually "hearing" or remembering. Good luck! :)
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    Can a Psychic Help Locate a Missing Item?

    That's funny -- the rug I saw was green. Maybe it was grass. ~ Z.
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    Can a Psychic Help Locate a Missing Item?

    Is there a rug or something in the bathroom (or somewhere else)? I have an image of a chain "buried" in the threads (pile, shag, whatever) of a rug. Deep enough in that you wouldn't see or feel it easily, unless you were really trying. HTH ~ Zan
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    What exactly is a reading?

    Well, cool! That's a nice way to feel. :) No, I hadn't thought of that, though it's a great idea -- especially now that I have some idea of what I'd be talking about. :) Thanks for the explanations, they've been very helpful. ~ Zan
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    What exactly is a reading?

    I hope this is the right forum for this... I was wondering if there is a difference -- and if so, what it is -- between what happens when someone says they're "reading" someone else and what happens to me when I "hear" (clairaudience?) or "see" (clairvoyance?) things I've got no other way of knowing? In other words, am I doing readings without realizing, or is a reading something else? I'm sort of confused about the term, and hope someone can explain it. Thanks! :) ~ Zan
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    What exactly is a reading?

    That helps a lot, Chili -- thanks! So, what I gather from all that is that while I perceive a lot of information psychically, I've only ever done a few readings in my life and they were all for my husband... no, wait, I guess the few threads I've answered here -- and one email on a list -- where people have asked "what will happen with..." are readings, too, aren't they? And, I guess it's possible (or even likely) that one could intend to do a deeper reading, but only receive verifiable "superficial" information. Okay, I think I'm getting this. To really oversimplify, a "reading" vs. random psychic perception has to do with depth and the ability to verify what you've learned. Right?
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    Can someone tell me what's going on?

    That's an interesting thought. I get phantom smells a lot! I never thought of them as anything other than the result of a shift in the air or something, but just a couple days before this thread started, I had gotten a really strong -- like nauseating -- whiff of (fresh!) human urine. But I was in a place where I knew that couldn't exist. (I honestly don't remember exactly where I was, but I do clearly recall stopping to wonder about it, because of the impossibility of it.) Anyway, it was just a "flash" of odor so I didn't think much of it, just figured it was one of those weird things the mind does sometimes. But now, I'm wishing I'd paid more attention -- and thinking I'll do so in the future. Sure, I might be able to provide a rational explanation for all the phantom odors I smell, but maybe not. And, this one of the more fun "weird experiences" I have. (The odors are usually *much* more pleasant! lol!) ~ Zan
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    What exactly is a reading?

    Oh, well, that makes sense. :) I'll look into things like that. I remember you mentioned auras, and I think I've been able to see the barest glimmerings of those on some people. Maybe that would also be a good thing to develop. errr..... glad to help! Sure, but I don't have a problem calling it a reading, I just didn't want to tell someone I'd be willing to "do a reading" and have them expect one thing, when I do another. My question wasn't what to call it, but what IS it? Maybe... it's a nice thought. :) (But, gee.... if that were the case, I'd think I'd have fewer personal issues! lol!) ~ Zan
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