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  1. Dot, I completely understand your question. I feel the same way about most of my abilities - what's the point? They usually seem to only benefit me, and often the "benefit" is simply the enjoyment of something beautiful.

     

    Anyway, this doesn't answer your question at all; I just wanted to share with you that I eventually came to the conclusion that not all of has to have a practical purpose. Sometimes, it's just a gift for sheer enjoyment. I think it took me a long time to look at it that way for the same reasons I would have difficulty accepting a compliment, or help, or a gift for no reason. But now, when I can't see the purpose behind something, I try to just sit back and enjoy it. :)


  2. I don't know what it is, but it reminds me A LOT of what I saw during a discussion in another thread....

     

     

     

     

    I dont know, but I see they have found an explanation for it. Hmmm

     

    What was the explanation they found? I couldn't find it in a quick search.

     

    It's pretty, whatever it is. :)


  3. I've never worked with crystals, though it's been suggested to me, so if I'm way off base here, ignore me. But.....

     

    ... There must be some kind of physical mechanism behind this for it to work as it is supposed to, a cause, an effect. ...

     

    Why? Why does there have to be a physical mechanism to the crystal itself for it to work? Stories abound about the power of belief, about how sugar pills and charms and such work, or don't work, depending on the user's level of belief in the efficacy of the tool. There's no physical mechanism to that.

     

    I'm really unsure about crystals myself, but I can't understand the claim that there *must* a physical mechanism for something to work. Why does there have to be one? Why can't it "just work"?


  4. Wouldn't surprise me. :) I was raised.... hmm.... my parent aren't religious, but I went to church myself because I liked Sunday school. So, as a kid, I always did Christian things of my own volition. Most of my diary from when I was six is full of letters to God. And my "prayers" are, to me, the same as my intuition. Christianity has always been my "thing", even though I find others' "things" fascinating, it's what I'm most comfortable with.

     

    Then, as an adult, I moved away. When I went to church again, all of a sudden, the Christians I found were dogmatic and judgemental and more religious that spiritual. I was taught that my own "version" of Christianity had been wrong. I was still more young and naive and vulnerable than I am now, I figured they were right and tried really really really hard to fit into Their box. But I couldn't do it, and I was delighted when my husband came to me years ago to announce that he no longer wanted to attend church for a lot of the same reasons I was uncomfortable.

     

    After we stopped going to church, we explored (or at least read about) every religion we could find. I keep coming back to my childhood understanding of Christianity. (I did feel a strong pull towards wicca, but it's not the same. It felt familiar, not necessarily comfortable. I've always suspected it was a past life thing.) Problem is, it's really hard to find people like me, let alone a church. So, I feel really adrift.

     

    But that's a whole other thread. :) Essentially, the idea of being pre-programmed for a religion feels right to me, though I don't think it would be the same one every time. That wouldn't make sense.

     

    Interesting idea. :)

     

    ~ Zan


  5. As I was driving today, I was having one of my "internal conversations." These conversations are how I've always understood anything intuitively, and I've always assumed (and understood) that I was talking to and listening to God. Always, as in I can remember doing this when I was as young as six!

     

    Now, not too long ago, I had a reading and the "reader" said she saw four spirits around me and that they felt like guides. To me, the idea of guides has never made a difference, because my conversations were always with God. I figured the guides would do their thing, but I never concerned myself with listening to them.

     

    Back to today -- all of a sudden, I could "hear" more than one distinct voice, and they were sometimes talking over each other. I asked if they were my guides, and they said they were. They said.... oh, I can't remember exactly, but it was along the lines that it didn't really matter if I believed I was talking to them or talking to God, as everything is ultimately God anyway.

     

    All of a sudden, it occurred to me that if everything is ultimately God, as I believe it is, then perhaps the concept of God as an entity that I have always believed in doesn't actually exist. This is a minor (very minor) crisis of faith!

     

    I feel like my understanding of all of this is just beyond my grasp -- probably due to the fact that I can't get quiet time long enough to mull it over, or even listen for an explanation "from beyond."

     

    Can anyone help me out with understanding, or share their opinions/beliefs, or whatever?? Thanks! :)

     

    ~ Zan


  6. Paulos, that's a perfect description -- first one I've seen that matched my experience so well. Except that mine don't have any pattern as to when they appear. They show up inside, outside, alone, with people, whenever. I can't recall now, though, if I've seen them away from home.

     

    AngelC, it's hard to tell the colors for sure, because they are so small and so quick. But I think I've seen pink, orange, green, blue, and yellow. And of course white. The colors are always pastel, or very light.

     

    I think I've seen auras before, but am not sure. Sometimes when I look just right at a person or object, I can see what looks like white shimmers that go out for about 2-3 inches beyond the person, all around. It's funny, as I'm writing this, I looked at the girls playing to see if I could see anything. I don't, really, but it's like... hmm... like instead of white shimmers, it's as if the 2-3 inches immediately around their bodies is just ever so slightly distorted. Like I can see where the aura (or whatever I see) would be, but I can't see the aura itself. Like a placeholder! lol!

     

    If I can ever remember to do it when it's quiet and I can "hear", I could just "ask" what they are, I guess. But that's not as useful until I get the whole thing straightened out as to whether to trust that I'm "hearing" vs. imagining. I can try and pay attention to when they happen, though. See if there's a pattern.

     

    Meanwhile, I'd still be interested if anyone feels they know what the sparks are. :)

     

    ~ Zan


  7. Over the past few months, there have been a few conversation about visual phenomena, including seeing sparks or small flashes of light. These are something that have been part of my experience only for the past two months or so. On occasion -- usually several times a day -- I will see a flash of light, like what you would expect from a small firefly, but in various colors.

     

    Anyway, I saw an eye doctor yesterday who said that my eyes are fine. When I asked about the "sparks", he said that would be a sign of a detached retina, which I don't have. He told me it is something normal for me, but to come see him if I see an increase in the number of them, so he could check the retina again. I didn't bother telling him this IS increased activity.

     

    So, in all the discussions I'd read here before, I never really did get the idea that anyone felt they knew what the sparks represented, if anything (or I missed or forgot it, which is more likely). Has anyone learned anything more? I haven't been able to turn up anything helpful in my brief search of Google.

     

    ~ Zan


  8. I know you said you didn't get any right, gypsy mama, but i was born with reddish hair actually, I have a sagitarius rising sign, and honestly your response to the siblings thing made me think because my brother and i have NO similar physical characteristics. (he is dark, i'm light, he has brown eyes, i have blue, very different features and build as well) the only similarity is kind of round eyes. It does make me wonder sometimes.

    As for the big ben tower, the place I was this summer did have a big ben style tower! I was thinking specifically of a room, but I wasn't focusing too much I guess, so i think you did alright!

     

    Really? That's interesting. Thanks for telling me, it's nice to know I was closer than I thought! :)

    ~ Z.


  9. I want to see if people get this stuff right..Just for fun

    :dance:

     

    What color is my hair?

    When is my birthday?

    Do I have siblings?

     

    Now it gets harder...

    I'm thinking of a song, what is it?

    I'm thinking of a person, what is their facebook password?

    I'm thinking of a place, where is it?

     

    I see red, or reddish, hair.

    A December birthday.

    No real siblings.

     

    Fly Me to The Moon comes to mind.

    can't think of a password, unless it really is "hack" because I glimpsed Dot's post before I listened for my own

    London, or in London, or in a place that reminds me of London -- I'm seeing a Big-Ben-style tower


  10. a reading?

     

    a meditation?

     

    a visualization?

     

    "receive" information?

     

    I'm curious as to how your mind works. :) Hey maybe it'll help the rookies and give some of us 'old pros' new ideas :D

     

    Good idea, Chilli! I'm going to answer, even though I think my answers are a bit dull... this is the first thing I've seen on the boards in a while that I felt I had anything to say about, so I'm saying it -- dull or not! :D Anyway...

     

    Readings.... I don't really do readings, I don't think.

     

    Meditation... if I set out to meditate, it doesn't go well, because I'm too worried about doing it "right." However, I will often find during the course of the day that I've reached the "meditative state" I was after in the first place simply because I got into what I was doing (or not doing) and *stopped thinking*. It's a nice state to be in. The only problem I have with my "method" (ha!) is that once I realize where my mind is, it isn't! But, given how well it goes when I try, I'll take what I can get!

     

    Visualization... umm... I usually fall asleep if I try this. I guess I should point out for anyone who hasn't seen me talk about it before that I homeschool three kids, am getting ready to make a big move next year, and tend to stay up too late reading. Fatigue is a pretty-constant state. :)

     

    "Receiving" information.... this is my whole reason for answering. :) I'm beginning to suspect that I've been receiving a lot of information that I've been unaware of because I don't pay attention to symbolism and things like that. But when I do want to know something, I just ask. I've always thought of it as prayer, until I was taught in church long ago that prayer isn't supposed to be literally answered, like as in a conversation. So, now I don't know what to call it, but it's just like imagining a conversation except that I don't know the other part of the conversation until it comes... which is often before I'm even done thinking through the words of my own part. Quite often little "mini-movies" will play out as well, but those are harder for me to deal with because they seem more ambiguous. I'm just better with words, I guess.

     

    It's interesting to me to be answering this now because it's just been in the past couple of days that I've really been considering all the possibilities as far as ways I could be receiving information -- unbidden -- if I was paying closer attention. I wonder if I can remember to come find this thread in a few months, and see how my answer has changed. :)

     

    ~ Zan


  11. Part two, so I can keep all my quotes in place. Too bad about my goofy spacing -- still figuring this all out.

     

    what you need to overcome is the nine of pentacles which is about about accomplishment and refinement, enjoying the finer things in life. It could suggest from the previous card that what you hear is given as opposed to what something you searched for. Maybe you need to overcome the comfort that you have gained from just waiting for answers to come to you which may make you too confident, and self-assured. What you need to develop may be more the inherent qualities of the nine of swords.

     

    What are those qualities?

     

    When you worry, you are actually over thinking. So if you are used to gathering your info from other sources maybe it's time to question the validity of those sources and think for yourself. That will lead to the Star. Maybe what will hear are things that will inspire you to say your own words as opposed to repeat the words of others.

     

    Okay, okay.... I've heard this a jillion times. Hopefully this time I'll listen. (Obviously, I think you're right on with this!)

     

    Your empathy in the past may have been more due to either surrounding yourself with people who exhibit those qualities (which are easy to read because they're so 1 sided) or your empathy was of a superficial and self-serving nature. Presently you are moving away from this type of energy or personality.

     

    Could be that my tendency to "feel people" in passing is the superficial quality you're talking about. I can't recall that I've ever been self-serving with it, not intentionally anyway. But it unnerves me so much that I've never done anything with it -- never tried to go beyond what just comes to me, and never tried to help anyone with it.

     

    What you don't know is that you may have many illusions of what you deem true empathy is. What you need to overcome is using your empathy, or ability to read people, for material gain or to gain trust (fyi empathy and sympathy are two VERY DIFFERENT things).

     

    Quite possibly. I'm sure have a lot of illusions about all things psychic. I feel I'm part of it, but at the same time, I feel I don't get it -- understand it -- a lot of times.

     

    What you need to develop is the ten of swords which may suggest leaving yourself and your illusions to truly feel what another person is feeling. Hmm.. compassion may be more the correct word. It is a turning turning point that you may have to experience in order to truly be empathic. funnily enough victim mentality in this spread even makes sense, because when you're empathic you truly feel what it's like to be the "victim." It will lead to a moment of transition. You may end up sacrificing your old thoughts, ways (relationship with someone like the knight of wands?) and suspending your doubts (illusions from the Moon) to gain true empathy with others.

     

    Makes sense. :)

     

     

     

    And part three...

     

    In the past you had a healthy blending of what you feel from something with what you know about the person you're reading. Presently are you working on this particular skill more often?

     

    Not that I know of! I considered psychometry beyond my realm of abilities altogether. So if I am working on it, it's as you say further on -- without knowing it.

     

    It is not only paying attention to detail but 'practice practice practice' :lol: you may be doing this more often than you know and attributing it to "it's cuz I just "get it" ya know." What is blocking you is solitude. You may not be exposing yourself to enough learning possibilities. (maybe you can ask people if you can touch something they're wearing, or look at their watch. If you get something find a way to bring up the subject to get confirmation??? is that too sneaky?)

     

    Yeah, solitude. We're at a place in life -- very temporary now -- where I am very isolated. I get out a lot, but know hardly anyone in the area. Almost all my friends are in other parts of the country (or world). So, I'll keep this in mind for after we move, and maybe practice on my family. But for now, I think that "sneaky move" will just make me look crazy because it would always be with people I don't know well... and am probably trying to befriend!

     

    What you need to overcome is the conscious effort, in other words using your will to gain information as opposed to letting the info come to you and wash over you. Don't force yourself to come up with something, just let it come. Or you may feel like you need to overcome the feeling of being as willful as the Magician who can use anything in his means to make things happen. What you need to develop I have chosen the two of wands as the king of swords has already appeared. What you need to develop is confidence in you ability to accomplish your goals. Feel that you are capable. It seems to me that psychometry, compared to other abilities, is one that you may be more proficient in than others. I'm surprised you're not aware of it. You may be actually reading people and just letting things slide as oh i heard it from a friend, or noticed a trend etc etc. This may also explain your (recent?) interest in palmistry. I'm not sure if that's a coincidence ;)

     

    Okay... interesting. And quite likely, I guess.

     

    and Whew is right! lol I remember doing this for myself and then taking a few extra days to fully understand what I was given. Hmm I should try this again someday :D Also I should probably think about whether the "what you need to overcome" should be switched to "What will help you overcome your block." Many times I wanted to say "what would help you to overcome this block is" so there's something to consider.

     

    Yeah, this is a lot. Thank you soooo much for the help. Wish I could figure out a way to use your interpretations to help myself learn more about tarot. But I think that's too much of a stretch right now. FWIW, I thought that was what the "overcoming" part was -- how to overcome the block. :)

     

    ~ Zan


  12. Wow, Chilli, thanks! This must have taken some time. I really appreciate it. See my feedback below -- you cleared up a LOT for me. :)

     

    The way I would read this section was that in the past your ability to "know" things psychically happened by chance. It was not by a will of your own but you possibly being in the right state of mind by chance to receive information. Presently your clairsentience is dependent upon your experience and possibly the assessment of those past experience (like understanding your own personal symbolism because it has occurred in the past).

     

    Well, I was going to say I thought this was wrong, but then I thought perhaps I'm confusing my "clairs." Simply "knowing" things without any images or internal conversations has happened just like you describe. The only difference, I think is that I don't know much about personal symbolism... at least I don't think I do. But, I do often recognize the difference between a random idea and "knowing," so maybe that's what you've picked up on.

     

    The block is maybe either a structure of authority that stops you from believing that your clairsentience is true. Like say a college or school, or even your own scientific background.. What you need to overcome well, poop that card is repeat so for now I'll chose a card for you if that's okay. I pulled out for you the nine of cups. (and fortunately that didn't come out in your original spread :D) Ah the wish come true card. This may suggest that because in your past it came naturally so you may have a bit of smuggness because 'you got it." ya know? In otherwords, don't be afraid to use what you learn and push further. What you need to develop is the transition that the Death card provides. Out with old in with the new. This may suggest that like the 9 of cups you should work to move forward with your abilities. It will probably lead to a beneficial union with God, the Universe or a Higher Plane. The Two of cups is a very beautiful card, it means being in sync. Or as I found "double Happiness." :D

     

    The block really makes sense. I was raised to believe this is all nonsense, and am now married to a scientist who, while accepting this part of me, doesn't really get it, kwim? I've been feeling for years like I want to develop these things, but need to learn to fully accept them first, instead of constantly wavering between believing in them (and myself) and thinking it's all fluffy fantasy.

     

     

    It looks like in the past your ability to see psychically may have been clouded by your unwillingness to see the truth and repressing your emotions. And this can mean for the good or bad. Maybe you didn't want to see the good because it's not something your used to. Or for the bad, maybe you deluded yourself into thinking everything is happy go lucky.

     

    Ha! Both! lol! When I see really good things, I tend to give them little credit and call it wishful thinking. When I see bad things, I tend to try to make them into something positive, or pretend they are something other than what I've seen.

     

    Presently your visual abilities are overwhelmed/burdened. What is blocking you is possibly the unfinished business that you have because you may move on too quickly without assessing what has occurred. When it comes to what is burdening your mind did your resolve it somehow? Sometimes you need closure in order to understand what is happening.

     

    Okay, I really get the overwhelmed/burdened. Especially if dreams count as clairvoyance. Oh... if they do, I think I know what the unfinished business might be. If not, I'll really have to think about that.

     

    The king of cups may suggest a father figure that calm, diplomatic and caring and tolerant.

     

    Again, if dreams count as clairvoyance, you have used here exact words that I myself have used to describe the friend about whom I've been having vivid dreams for the past several months. Interesting....

     

    To move forward maybe it's a matter of emulating these qualities. A diplomatic person knows how to assess a situation and put his efforts in the right places and delegating others in order to avoid being overwhelmed. What you may need to develop is not so much accepting your hardships but learning from it and not being afraid to ask for help. If things are difficult be resourceful, if your health is ailing ask for assistance, if you are rejected look for acceptance. What it may lead to is opening your clairvoyance to endless possibilities. Just try not to overwhelm yourself but pic and choose. ;)

     

    Yeah, I can see (no pun intended) how all this is true. Not sure how to go about it, but I think I understand it.

     

    ... In the past your clairaudience was based off of your mental fortitude. Possibly suggesting that you are a good listener and randomly remember things so it would sound like it came from somewhere else but really its something you overhear.

     

    Okay, I think I'm confusing myself again here. I was thinking of clairaudience only as the voices I literally hear as I fall asleep. I know those voices rarely, if ever, say things I overhear. But one of my ways of "knowing" things is through an internal conversation, for lack of a better description. I tried to describe it to my dad once, and he sort of scoffed at the idea of it being intuition and explained that the mind files every little thing away and while I wasn't intuitive, my mind was very good at sorting through "archives" to find what's needed at the moment -- all without me even trying. I think this is what you're describing.

     

    Presently you are articulate, just and ethical, this may be an effect of your listening abilites as you can gather info to create coherent thoughts and responses. What is blocking you is possibly how much weight you place on your teammates, friends, families, coworkers, and what they say. You may be saying things you deem as 'facts' because you overheard it but it's well.. watercooler gossip.

     

    Definitely listen to others more than myself. (That's why I've posted so many questions on this board asking someone to help me sort this out!)


  13. lol i know what you mean Zan. it was quite the effort for me too. :D I'll definitely help you out but i gotz to get to bed so tomorrow you're reading is the first thing i'll attend to.

     

    by the way did you notice that somehow you wrote 7 of pentacles twice for the first row? technically it should only come up once. do you remember which cards were there?

     

    Oh, you're right! And, I hate to tell you why... I don't own cards yet, so I used a random card generator online from a site I frequent. I remember my mind "glitched" a little when I saw that, but I didn't know why until you pointed it out. :::sigh::: I guess it's definitely not the same, but it's all I've got to work with at the moment.

     

    Any suggestions on what to do? Probably just leave it as is?

     

    Thanks for the help. I appreciate it! :)

     

    ~ Zan


  14. I said there were a few of these that might make sense to me. If anyone has a chance to offer their own interpretation, I'll be curious to see how it differs from mine. Good learning experience, since I'm simply going off the keywords. :) (I'll put my thoughts in italics below)

     

    Clarisentience:

    ability in past -- Wheel of Fortune: Destiny, Turning Point, Movement, Personal Vision

    ability presently -- seven of pentacles: Assessment, Reward, Direction Change

    what you don't know (block) -- the emperor: Fathering, Structure, Authority, Regulation

    what you need to overcome -- seven of pentacles: Assessment, Reward, Direction Change

    what you need to develop -- death: Ending, Transition, Elimination, Inexorable Forces

    where ability will lead -- two of cups: Connection, Truce, Attraction

     

    What I get from this is that this ability has been.... well, I don't want to call it destiny because I'm not sure what I think of that, but since it's the word used, I can't think of anything else! Now, there's a change, I've been assessing my abilities. What's blocking me is a lack of structure... maybe a lack of a teacher?... I don't get the next two... I think where it will lead is a connection to the universe.

     

    Funny, the things I "get" seem so obvious to me, they feel too easy and I don't trust that (don't know why!). The ones I don't get, I really don't get -- no clue.

     

    Clairvoyance:

    ability in past -- two of swords: Blocked Emotions, Avoidance, Stalemate

    ability presently -- ten of wands: Overextending, Burdens, Struggle

    what you don't know (block) -- eight of cups: Deeper Meaning, Moving On, Weariness

    what you need to overcome -- king of cups: Wise, Calm, Diplomatic, Caring, Tolerant

    what you need to develop -- five of pentacles: Hard Times, Ill Health, Rejection

    where ability will lead -- seven of cups: Wishful Thinking, Options, Dissipation

     

    What I get from this is that I've been avoiding this ability, or it was blocked. Now that I'm slowly stopping the avoidance, I find myself trying too hard maybe? I don't get the rest of this, and I'm not even sure about what I've written. This one makes no sense to me.

     

    Clairaudience:

    ability in past -- ace of swords: Mental Force, Truth, Justice, Fortitude

    ability presently -- king of swords: Intellectual, Analytical, Articulate, Just, Ethical

    what you don't know (block) -- three of pentacles: Teamwork, Planning, Competence

    what you need to overcome -- five of pentacles: Hard Times, Ill Health, Rejection

    what you need to develop -- nine of swords: Worry, Guilt, Anguish

    where ability will lead -- the star: Hope, Inspiration, Generosity, Serenity

     

    The only one here that makes any sense to me is that last one, which looks great, but the rest of it is such a mystery to me that it's not that encouraging! lol!

     

    Empathy:

    ability in past -- knight of wands: Charming/Superficial, Self-Confident/Cocky, Daring/Foolhardy, Adventurous/Restless, Passionate/Hot-Tempered

    ability presently -- six of swords: The Blues, Recovery, Travel

    what you don't know (block) -- the moon: Fear, Illusion, Imagination, Bewilderment

    what you need to overcome -- ace of pentacles: Material Force, Prosperity, Practicality, Trust

    what you need to develop -- ten of swords: Bottoming Gut, Victim Mentality, Martyrdom

    where ability will lead -- the hanged man: Letting Go, Reversal, Suspension, Sacrifice

     

    I don't know what it means, but the keywords for the first card -- the way they are paired sets, ways of describing feelings -- that just seems like validation of empathy to me. I know the descriptions themselves mean something else, but I'm not sure how that applies, like I said. I can see the next two as well -- I've been "dry" for a while, so "recovery" makes sense... as does "the blues" as my depression has been rearing its head lately. And I know that fear and bewilderment are often blocks to me when it comes to anything psychic. The rest of it, again, I don't really get.

     

    An aside from this particular spread -- I notice that the things in tarot I understand generally have to do with descriptions of what has been, what is, and sometimes what will be. But I always have a *really* hard time interpreting the cards that are supposed to advise. Wonder why that is...

     

    Psychometry:

    ability in past --temperance: Temperance, Balance, Health, Combination

    ability presently -- eight of pentacles: Diligence, Knowledge, Detail

    what you don't know (block) --the hermit: Introspection, Searching, Guidance, Solitude

    what you need to overcome --the magician: Action, Conscious Awareness, Concentration, Power

    what you need to develop --king of swords: Intellectual, Analytical, Articulate, Just, Ethical

    where ability will lead -- the devil: Bondage, Materialism, Ignorance, Hopelessness

     

    Okay, this is a skill I'm not even convinced I have -- how would I know? But working under the assumption that this is something I can even do... It would seem that it's something has been has been.... no, I can't even figure that out.

     

    Ugh, this is another problem I have with tarot. Big spreads wear me out. So, by the time I get to the end of something like this none of it makes sense any more.

     

    So, as you can see, I really need help with this. If you've got time, I'd love any input. Thanks! :)

     

    ~ Zan


  15. Last night, I found an old thread by Chilli about spreads that had been made up. In it, she described a 30-card spread used to learn about one's psychic gifts. It was five columns of six cards. Each column was a psychic gift (she suggested (and I used) Clairsentience Clairvoyance Clairaudience Empathy Psychometry). The rows created were different things about each gift:

     

    ability in the past

    ability presently

    what you don't know (block)

    what you need to overcome

    what you need to develop

    where ability will lead

     

    Ordering the cards was top to bottom, left to right.

     

    So, I laid this out this morning, out of curiosity. But I'm not good enough with tarot yet to make a lot of sense of this, and was hoping someone would help. I happened to write in keywords to try and help myself, so I'm going to include them. But, I'm assuming anyone good with tarot doesn't need them. Here's what I got...

     

    Clarisentience:

    ability in past -- Wheel of Fortune: Destiny, Turning Point, Movement, Personal Vision

    ability presently -- seven of pentacles: Assessment, Reward, Direction Change

    what you don't know (block) -- the emperor: Fathering, Structure, Authority, Regulation

    what you need to overcome -- seven of pentacles: Assessment, Reward, Direction Change

    what you need to develop -- death: Ending, Transition, Elimination, Inexorable Forces

    where ability will lead -- two of cups: Connection, Truce, Attraction

     

    Clairvoyance:

    ability in past -- two of swords: Blocked Emotions, Avoidance, Stalemate

    ability presently -- ten of wands: Overextending, Burdens, Struggle

    what you don't know (block) -- eight of cups: Deeper Meaning, Moving On, Weariness

    what you need to overcome -- king of cups: Wise, Calm, Diplomatic, Caring, Tolerant

    what you need to develop -- five of pentacles: Hard Times, Ill Health, Rejection

    where ability will lead -- seven of cups: Wishful Thinking, Options, Dissipation

     

    Clairaudience:

    ability in past -- ace of swords: Mental Force, Truth, Justice, Fortitude

    ability presently -- king of swords: Intellectual, Analytical, Articulate, Just, Ethical

    what you don't know (block) -- three of pentacles: Teamwork, Planning, Competence

    what you need to overcome -- five of pentacles: Hard Times, Ill Health, Rejection

    what you need to develop -- nine of swords: Worry, Guilt, Anguish

    where ability will lead -- the star: Hope, Inspiration, Generosity, Serenity

     

    Empathy:

    ability in past -- knight of wands: Charming/Superficial, Self-Confident/Cocky, Daring/Foolhardy, Adventurous/Restless, Passionate/Hot-Tempered

    ability presently -- six of swords: The Blues, Recovery, Travel

    what you don't know (block) -- the moon: Fear, Illusion, Imagination, Bewilderment

    what you need to overcome -- ace of pentacles: Material Force, Prosperity, Practicality, Trust

    what you need to develop -- ten of swords: Bottoming Gut, Victim Mentality, Martyrdom

    where ability will lead -- the hanged man: Letting Go, Reversal, Suspension, Sacrifice

     

    Psychometry:

    ability in past --temperance: Temperance, Balance, Health, Combination

    ability presently -- eight of pentacles: Diligence, Knowledge, Detail

    what you don't know (block) --the hermit: Introspection, Searching, Guidance, Solitude

    what you need to overcome --the magician: Action, Conscious Awareness, Concentration, Power

    what you need to develop --king of swords: Intellectual, Analytical, Articulate, Just, Ethical

    where ability will lead -- the devil: Bondage, Materialism, Ignorance, Hopelessness

     

    Sorry that's so long! Whew! Anyway, I've got get the kids' lessons started. There is some of this I do think I get, but I can't write it out right now. Will try to come back later and do that. Meanwhile, I'm looking forward to input from anyone who has it. Thanks! :)

     

    ~ Zan


  16. That requires that the soul did not know what it was before the human experience, and it is required to take it on in order to understand itself. For the soul to do such a thing, it is required that it can learn. For a thing to learn, it is required that it possesses the capacity to lack information. To add to and be taken from requires mutability, or the capacity for change, which requires finity. If the soul was -perfect- it would not -require- the mantle of humanity to understand itself better.

     

    You are right. However, I think the problem -- from my perspective, anyway, as I know you don't have a problem -- with your argument as a whole is that learning is different from experiencing.

     

    Have you never turned your face to the sunshine just to experience the warmth of it on your face -- and not thought one bit about anything you *know* about the sun, not tried to learn a thing??

     

    To me, this is what life -- the human experience, anyway -- is all about. What we learn can be interesting, but is silly in the big picture. After this life, none of it matters, but the experiences we had.

     

    I could go on and on, this is something that's important to me. But I've got to feed my family, so I'll stop there, as I think that's the most important point I could have made.

     


  17. ... It can only be the soul that makes us what we are...

     

    The soul makes us what we are, but as humans we are living as what we are not, so that we can know what we are.

     

    You know what? Have you read the book "Conversations With God" yet? If you haven't, do -- it clarified for me so many of the things I've tried to explain here (even though I still don't explain well -- little ones interfere with my writing skills). If you have, and still see things as you do, then it's just a matter of perspective, somehow, that no amount of discussion is likely to change.

     

    I don't mean to sound belligerent here. I'm just rushing to get the point down before my 5yo distracts me from it. Again. :)

     

    Also, to be honest, you seem so unhappy and part of me wants to fix that NOW. One of my weaknesses... I can't stand for people to be unhappy when I see the world as such a wonderful place. But, there are times when people need to be unhappy, and I'm trying to learn when to help and when to just be there. Haven't got it down yet. ;)

     

    ~ Zan


  18. I'll listen, Im fascinated by your ability, and I totally agree its to do with conditioning.

     

     

     

    Either that or are afraid of being thought of as insane :rolleyes:

     

     

     

    You dont need to, you do fine talking to God, you have done it for so long, I think you have a strong connection. It was great you were encouraged to do so as a child. Just wondering, do you encourage your children to talk to God?

     

    Thanks. :) I still have a hard time thinking of it as special... as in different... and am always surprised when more people aren't the same way. But, at the same time, there's that "insanity" fear factor. ;)

     

    Anyway, I encourage my kids to the extent that they bring it up. My dad didn't really set out to teach me much about spirituality. In fact, he's told me as an adult that he in fact made an effort to not shape my spirituality in any way. I can understand and respect his point of view, especially knowing that he grew up in a very strictly religious household. But, it would've been nice to have more guidance and support. Finding my way through all this alone has been frustrating at times because there are very few people I can talk to about my experiences, and because I've been so alone in them, it's been very easy to doubt their validity.

     

    I hope to strike a balance with my own kids. Not shape their views to my own beliefs, but to be there for them more as they find their own way -- something everyone ultimately has to do, anyway. But, I haven't quite figured out how to do that yet! lol! It doesn't help that my kids are so different, either! My son (12) is very literal and mocks religion. I think he has strong spiritual beliefs, but he doesn't like to discuss them and tends to pretend he thinks it's all ridiculous -- especially anything paranormal. My older daughter is 5 and asking a lot of questions about God and Jesus and magic... and just the other night freaked her dad out by telling me there was a fire. When I ran to help, he was watering down a potential fire hazard, but hadn't said a word about it. His surprise surprised me, ironically. I mean, he is married to me... did he really think I was going to be the only one? But, I think he has always thought of my abilities as a spiritual gift, and not being psychic. I don't really see a difference, but I can see that since he holds that view, Zoe's action would surprise him because she's not really old enough to have what he seems to believe I have.... if that makes sense!

     

    You know, writing this down, I realize one of the reasons I'm trying so hard to be able to understand and name all the things I do... I want to be able to share it with my scientific son and be able to explain things to him in a matter of fact way that he'll be able to accept... and I want to be able to share with Zoe in a way that helps her experience her own magic. The baby, of course, I have no idea about except that she is exceptionally alert, aware, and affectionate. I also want to be able to stand my ground when dealing with people who have difficulty with it -- especially since we're planning to find a church to attend after we move, for social reasons. I'm a little nervous about that, since my husband was a born-again fundamentalist Christian when we met (and I was trying to be, since I thought it was the right thing to do at the time). A lot of the friends he's making in the new town are also born-again. So, I want to be very choosy about the church we attend, so I don't have to "go into hiding" again. :)

     

    I think I answered your question -- let me know if I didn't, or if you have others! :)

     

    ~ Zan


  19. What an interesting subject... and in a place where (maybe) no none will look down on me, or even askance, for my reply! :D

     

    First, I think the reason most of us believe we can't talk to God is that we have been conditioned to believe that we're not worthy. If I recall correctly, most of the major religions refer to a sin nature or something similar that has removed us from God. Even if we don't specifically believe that, it pervades our culture so much that it's hard to escape the belief, or the conditioning.

     

    That said, I personally believe that everyone has the capacity to talk to -- and hear from -- God. Why? Because I was doing it as a child, long before anyone told me it was impossible. Once I "learned" it was impossible, I tried to stop... to be more respectful in my prayers by going through Jesus as I'd been taught. But, I couldn't help it! I've always just talked to God like he was "Daddy" (not that I particularly believe him to be male, but... my relationship with my dad is probably the best relationship I've got, and -- again -- cultural conditioning). Not doing so was so unnatural for me. So I let myself start again, and just didn't talk about it. Now, there are times as I've gotten older and busier that I'll go some time without talking to God, just like I'll go some time without calling my dad, but my life always suffers for it.

     

    Also important, for me, to note -- these are *conversations*. In other words, I "hear" answers, just as much as I talk. Well, almost just as much. God's much more concise than I am. ;) I don't hear an audible voice... it's more like what goes on in my mind if I remember a conversation I had with someone... except that this is new material.

     

    FWIW, this is why I get so confused about spirit guides and divination tools and all that. I've always just "talked to God" and known what I need to know. I even aced tests in school that way! (Is it cheating? Nah... it was on the premise that all the information's "in there somewhere". I just asked for help finding it.) I find the ideas of using spirit guides, divination tools, mediumship (is that right?) fascinating, but I can never muster the patience to really learn them when it's so much faster to just ask and listen. It would be nice, though, to understand about the other things for when my mind is muddled... of course, I sort of think I'm not "allowed" to learn those things easily exactly because I would be moving away from God, not closer. (maybe???)

     

    Anyway, I'm starting to ramble because I love this topic. I could talk forever about conversing with God, but I can rarely find an audience who will actually listen! lol! (Thankfully, my husband is a consistent member of that audience... don't know what I'd do otherwise!). So, I hope that helps a little. :)

     

    ~ Zan

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