No, the last 3 years, after my Dad passed, I ended all communication with my family, same thing with friends, I have children I actually care about raising and they want to party like they have no responsibilities. I really don't have anyone, I didn't realize networking would be so hard to start up from scratch all over again. It's been a hard 3 years. I'm a terrible introvert, I struggle with bad depression and anxiety and with the recent miscarriage I find it hard to even get out of bed. My job I was laid off from kept me motivated and kept my mind off not wanting to completely die inside. That job ended terribly, and the job before that ended bad, I'm scared to even start a new job because I don't want to deal with that ever again. It's been really hard, especially these last few months and the financial stress makes it even worse for me, physically and mentally. I just feel like I'm screwed.